Facing Myself and the Truth

My body trembling, I slowly stepped upon the scale, fully aware that I would not like the result. Where did I loose it ? Where did I loose my self worth? How could I let myself go this far? My own reflection sickens me. The idea of another existance being remotely attracted to me is nothing but figment of my own imagination. How could they? Why would they? So I relunctantly look down at the result and my heart sinks. 244. WOW. This is not me, this has to be a dream. I'm tellin you this is the day... Everyday I will be committed to changing . The layers will shed slowly but surely and I will emerge.. The woman I once was