Why?

IT Is kind of funny how life turns out.. how people that once were such a big part of your life and people that you thought would be a permanent fixture in your life slowly fade out.... What was once annoying about you they become.. skinny people annoy me .. why? because honestly i am jealous .. I wish i could be them .. and i honestly think that people hate things about you because you in some sort of way are something they desire to be... now later on they have become everything they hated about you... and in some aspects it hurts and it hurts ad because how could some sort of relationship that you once had be ruined by something that they have now become? it makes no sense if you really thinking about it.... If they just acknowledged in the first place that they did not hate certain things about you but they envied them then there would of been no need for things to turn out this way.... I threw away so many things in my life... things now that i see was probably for the best.... I want to move forward in my life not continuously backtrack.. everything happens in life for a reason and lets not try to change the past and recreate it but yet appreciate what was and look forward to better things and more promising future....